Life has changed so so will I. This is my last post. I am sick of this. It takes up time that I should be doing things that will benefit me instead of looking at a computer screen. I need a change so I am changing. GOOD BYE FOREVER!!!!

Thanks to all those who helped make this site possible, screw up my life, or add a piece of humor into it.

Oh and for all you worriers out there, shut up. Just general life advice. My parting words of wisdom is that you need to go with the flow. Life will throw shit at you and it will suck, but live with it and stop your f-ing crying about it. I read peoples xangas and I realize just how depressed, retarded, or lonely most of you are. I have listened to people complaints for the last time. I am not a psychiatrist. I do try to help people with their problems though. Any of you who had a break up, feel lonely, or lack the balls to say something to someone here's some advice:

I have learned a lot in my life, a break up is something you must face and realize how important finding that right person is, feeling lonely is probably do to the fact you don't leave your computer and when you do you never talk to people, and the whole lacking ballls thing; sometimes you need to just say what you need to say and repair the damage later like ripping tape out of your hair. Its going to hurt either way but get it over with and hopefully it won't be as bad as you thought.

Damn it people, I know how you feel because at one point I probably dealt with the same shit, but if your problem is just insesant worrying about it, stop. This is an addiction more powerful than smoking. Worrying also causes more damage also. I would rather die of cancer than internal bleeding from ulcers. I was talking with this kid that is a hypocondriac and was afraid of everything at camp and he made me realize life is too damn short to give a crap about petty problems. If it's other peoples attitudes towards you, screw em. Don't give them the reward of watching you turn into a bitter person, rise above and be recognized for your strength. And if that doesn't work I believe in your right to be a miserable piece of shit as long as you don't spread it to me.

This is the last will and testament of Fishmark

Good luck and I hope we never speak

Xanga I hate you

-FishMark-out

Time of death-1:26 pm

When people pull the plug the patient perservers only to poop their pants....

WHAT HAPPENED

Am I the only one thats noticing that everyone is getting married and or having kids. After a year or so everyone I know is ready to settle down for life. So much pressure. I think I am going to concentrate on career first. I am unlucky in love and so far pretty lucky in buisness, so I'll stick with it. I am hoping people just realize that their lives are peaking at 19 and 20 now because they are ready to settle. Screw that I call for financial independance first. I don't want to struggle financially through life. I want to suceed, not saying none of you people already getting hitched aren't going anywhere, I am just saying it would be tough. Actually I will hold out until I can find a woman to be my sugar momma, that way I will never have to work she can support me. Or maybe I will have many wives, some to take care of the biusness , some to take care of the kids and some to take care of the "Buisness". Sounds good to me.JK

Peace

Mark

The new FLAG Button

Ok I think xanga is hilarious. I see on the news these kids getting busted for underage usage and shit like that. I think that prompted xanga to make a flag button to ward off users who want to be stupid. I find this incredibly amazing, look at it sometime. My site should be shut down for being promoting hatred and violence. I hate you all of you and I want you to commit violence. That right there should get me flagged but it says proof. How is anything on the internet proof. It even asks for proof of under age drinking. Well I am sorry to point this out but, I get boozed up everynight and I am nineteen. Is this proof or bullshit? It maybe true or an exageration of a habit which shows criminal behavior because I am 19, but I could be completely bullshitting you. Next up photos that prove the consupmtion of alcohol, I have various picture that show me "consuming alcholic beverages" They aren't real and actually most of them deal with friends and I making fake alcohol with tea and using it for films and various products. I wonder if those pictures will hold up in court. Can I be arrested. The answer is probably yeah because I am an idiot. I will end up doing something or saying something to piss someone off whether it be from any race color or creed. I do not live in fear of others because how can they determine my messages as one of hate when they don't know me. They even say to much personal content under saftey, well get ready for it, I like long walks on the beach with candel light dinners. I live in Michigan and kill puppies on my free time. I am a student at Grand Valley State and hate almost every human being still living. So much for not being a hatred site under the obscenity. Maybe I should preech about how I hate white people and call for their irraication, but I am white. Then I am filed under advocating hurting myself and I am back under a saftey violation. Wow, lets just say dumb things really grind my gears. Ultimately I think this is a journal and you wish people to be able to see it, but maybe we are taking censorship too far when we are calling xanga a legitamate source of information when 99% of the users can't even use real english or spell.

So everyone can go to Hell. Take that as you will.

Peace

Mark

SCHOOL IS DONE HOOOOORAAYY

Alright so school is over yet it is still taking me time to put all my entry shit for the film festival in order. I am depressed school is over because all of my friends went home. SOme are still here but I guess it gives me time to reconnect with all of those who come back to CP for the summer. I am going to have a film showing at my house next weekend because this weekend I have section conclave. I hear the program guy for section is a genius. Anyways I am scheduling my film to be shown at 8:00pm on friday on the first weekend in may. There will be popcorn and booze if you bring it. Just kidding alcohol is bad for you. But if you come drunk I don't care. Anyways and after I was gonna go to steak and shake. If anyone wants to come send me an E-mail. Oh by the way the films aren't long it will only take a half hour.

Peace